In The Car Outside (Abridged)

I'm in the car I just needed to clear my head She's in the house With the baby crying on the bed She's got this thing Where she puts the walls so high It doesn't matter how much you love It doesn't matter how hard you try We got a place With a fence and a little grass I put this film on the windows And it looks like chapel glass But when she turns It's like the shadow of the cross don't cast No blessing over our lonely life It's like waiting for a train to pass And I don't know when it'll pass But I remember when she used to set the room on fire With her eyes Swear to God It's like a flood of grief and sorrow from a haunted life When she cries Like a train It's a lot I dropped a line To a flickering high school flame We laughed about All the ways that our lives had changed She's up the road About 35 miles north Got two little boys in school Just had a real bad divorce And in a moment of weakness I told her if she ever needed a helping hand I would lend Swear to God It's like the part of me That's screaming not to jump gets lost In the sound Of the train It's a lot I'm trying hard Not to cave Swear to God