Special Different

Hey I'm special, but I must admit There might be somethin' missin' like the last puzzle piece I stick out like a sore thumb, the harder you're laughin' So spare me your sarcasm 'cause I don't understand it I'm special, but only good in small doses Infantilized with a self-diagnosis Crashin' hard 'cause I can't mask or pretend to be normal So here I am, a dancin' monkey, on my way to the circus Don't tell me to calm down I was born to stand out Special, different I'm special, but I must admit I'm a car crash train wreck that nobody can fix Why can't I just fit in, why can't I just sit still? Born under punches my compulsion, and depression creepin' in I'm special, good in small doses Infantilized with a self diagnosis Alone again with no friends, I did not mean to cause offense Diluted versions of myself, all these crack, I've got to mend Don't tell me to calm down I was born to stand out And I know they'll call me different, and I know they'll call me special It's never spoken kindly when everybody says it Special, different Special, different Why can't I just fit in? Why can't I just sit still? Don't tell me to fit in Don't tell me to sit still Special, different Special, different