i’ll be happy when

I'll be happy when this lonely city feels like mine Maybe when I have a license and a car to drive I can take a trip to nowhere on the 405 Just to feel alive I'll be happy when I finally can find real friends Who all like me as I am, and they don't all pretend That I'm more than just a temporary means to an end Thinking maybe then that I'll be fine But what if it's all too late? What if I'm bound to break? 'Cause what if there's nowhere to escape? Once the high starts to fade, fade I start to fade, fade I start to fade I'll be happy when my smiles aren't in self-defense When I finally belong outside convenience And they ask me how I'm doing, and they really care for real I fear, I fear, I fear that life's not mine And it's all too late What if I'm bound to break? 'Cause what if there's nowhere to escape? Once the high starts to fade, fade I start to fade, fade I wanna fade, fade I start to fade, fade I wanna fade Will I be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever? Be a buzzkill forever?