Sorry To Cancel

Hey, sorry to cancel I'm in the middle of a spiral My heart is a handful And my body's out to get me Hope you don't mind I haven't replied to any of your messages lately I got eleven sixty-nine in my account right now Bought a bag, I don't know why, I don't want rest right now Went on to set another line, went off the script I'm not equipped to hang out In large crowds right now My mind often plays tricks on me Did I lie when I said I was happy? Hard times being involved with me I'm surprised it's not all it's cracked up to be Do you think I'm worthy Never mind, that doesn't matter I'm so grateful for my life I can't believe I'm almost 30 I wonder when I'll die, broadly speaking Of course Even with the fog I really feel you should've called me Even kettle called the pot You fuel the fire, can't bear the smoke I don't get it, everything feels unfair to me But you're forgiven, I can't remember anything My mind often plays tricks on me Did I lie when I said I was happy? Hard times being involved with me I'm surprised it's not all it's cracked up to be To be It's not all it's cracked up to be