Honest Conversation

It's been while since we talked I walked and walked and I got lost And once again, I ended up back here You say to come just as I am But do you mean those things You said I've got so many questions and so much fear Do You even notice me As my brain's on fire and I'm losing sleep You say You're here But God, that's hard to believe Can I just be real for a minute The trust in You gets lost in my feelings This war inside is flesh and spirit And it feels like flesh is gonna win it But You're the one I put my faith in The proof is that I'm still here praying I know You care what my heart's really saying So God, let's have an honest conversation I'm laying all of my cards down Nothing left to hide, not now What's the point if I can't tell the truth You say You're here inside my heart Then why God do You feel so far When all I want is to feel so close to You Can I just be real for a minute The trust in You gets lost in my feelings The war inside is flesh and spirit And it feels like flesh is gonna win it But You're the one I put my faith in The proof is that I'm still here praying I know You care what my heart's really saying So God, let's have an honest conversation An honest conversation If You love me Then why do I hate myself If You want me Then why do I want to be someone else If You know me Then why do I feel so alone If there's answers Then God, won't You tell me so Can I just be real for a minute The trust in You gets lost in my feelings This war inside is flesh and spirit And it feels like flesh is gonna win it But You're the one I put my faith in The proof is that I'm still here praying I know You care what my heart's really saying So God, let's have an honest conversation An honest conversation