The Trauma Song

Aw, you ain't ready for this one I do believe the captain has turned on the fasten seatbelts sign (Haha) I ain't tryna flex, but my childhood was turbulent (woo!) It gave me a lot of scars that are permanent Problem is, I don't need anybody but I need to be needed I'm my own worst enemy and I'm undefeated Used to live with my mom in a one-room apartment She was on pills, passed out on the carpet Childhood sucked, I had real bad luck! When I hit rock bottom, I was actually moving up! Everybody got some problems, but we don't wanna talk about 'em I should probably go to the doctor But instead I went and wrote this song 'Cause that's my trauma My trauma That's my trauma and it really fucked up my life I'm a track star the way I run from commitment Human pandemic you gon' have to keep your distance You don't wanna know the things I think about in solitude Whenever someone likes me I'm like, "What the hell is wrong with you?" (Dude) And when I wake up in the morning I don't feel nothin' 'cause I lack serotonin Only thing lower than my self esteem Is my chance of achieving any hopes and dreams Everybody got some problems, but we don't wanna talk about 'em I should probably go to the psych-ward But that's what I wrote this song for That's my trauma My trauma That's my trauma and it really fucked up my life My grandpa got his ass whooped So my dad got his ass whooped That's why I got my ass whooped Did anybody else get beat? I was only seven and we didn't have tablets So I played cards with my cousin in the attic Found a tube of lipstick still in the package Put a little on me and I looked fantastic Then we heard someone open up the hatch And it was step-dad and he started going batshit He had been drinkin' all day throwing mad fits Then I heard a bell I was about to get my ass kicked (on God!) He hit me with the RKO (on God!) A suplex from the top row (on God!) I was in serious trouble, 'cause he took my Ninja Turtles and he smashed 'em with a shovel (on God!) He said, "You're not my real son" I didn't like the guy, but that one really stung Since then, I always thought I wasn't man enough But I won't complain 'cause everybody had it tough! That's my trauma My trauma That's my trauma and it really fucked up my life (deep, it's really deep)